I am a Christian medical student recovering from severe depression. This blog is my way of setting down my thoughts, and focussing on what God is teaching me as a result of my illness. My aim is to learn how to better manage my depression and either keep it at bay, or learn to recognise when it’s coming back.
I chose the title of this blog as psalm 46 is one of my favourites and the verse ‘Be still and know that I am God‘ is something I am trying to understand and learn. I’ve not read the entire Bible yet but have learnt a lot from what I have read so far. There have been some embarrassing mishaps along the way which no doubt will be written about at some point - a good example being when I thought the ark of the covenant (which was a very small box) was the same as Noah’s ark (which was a very big boat) and got very confused as to how exactly the Israelites could manage to keep losing it in the desert as quite frankly, that boat would have been pretty hard to miss…….cue a red face.
Things I like: singing and playing clarinet and sax, coffee, baking, good books, being busy, learning to serve my community, working with people with LD, new projects, the outdoors, working out what it means to be a good doctor, asking questions, being on committees, Jeremiah and Hebrews.
Things I am not very good at: being still, saying no, being dedicated to reading my Bible every day (though I’m trying), letting sleeping dogs lie, sleeping in general, ironing.
Things I might write about:
- I’m in counselling at the moment for depression and it’s not exactly a barrel of laughs…
- I run a student charity which sends volunteers to visit lonely, elderly hospital patients and I absolutely love it. We’re currently trying to get a library together for one of the more deprived hospitals – sounds boring, but it will hopefully make a difference for the patients!
- My experiences of church, which can be hard when I’m low.
- When I grow up, I want to be a paediatrician, or a geriatrician and definitely NOT a surgeon.
- Best medical experience to date: delivering my first baby! Miracles in action…
Just to point out – everything here is my own opinion, and not affiliated with anyone else etc. I’m still learning – so if I write something that isn’t quite Biblically or theologically accurate, please bear that in mind (and let me know!). I didn’t grow up in church or a Christian family so my background knowledge is a bit patchy at times.
Sometimes, people stumble on this blog when they’ve typed things into google like ‘how to help someone with depression’ or ‘Christians with depression’ or something similar – if this is you, I hope my little blog helps, and that you get the help you need too, from wherever you need it – you’re not alone. You’re never alone.
Comments are always welcome as long as they are constructive, interesting and not offensive!
lots of love, Char48